Today after school we went out to shop :P buy banana milk shake, they use banana syrup one.. NOT nice de... !!! bought a big cute monkey softtoy :P me and lee ching bought durian pancake up to foodcourt to find esther and wenjie. We talk about chooping ye head, hand all those off to keep (actually some time i really can be very sadistic de ;) ):D haha...then talk about making cass and jj drunk and push them into a room, asking jj kiss cass also :P then they say for cass they all is, jj is the wolve.. cass is the sheep, then say im the wolve and ye is the sheep. -_-"" i wont do anything to him de la !!! but i feel like drinking beer with annabel.. :'(

Today did something silly, brought the drink to school for alex and bel.. so just bring more. Then got extra then ask esther give ye lor, then he get already immediately wanted to faster give off to others ... -_-"" i think this really really irritate him or something ba and made me conclude that he dont like me lar!! SURE de.. so girls dont keep saying all those nice dream made me imagine le la..:P

Just now the stupid bus uncle hor...!! i press the bell so many time le he dont want to stop leh !!! then no choice wait next stop le lor.. then i press le, he did stop.. but dont want open door!!! then he even want to continue drive sia...then i faster press the bell again and again then he stop and open door...!!! then he still want to shake head... shake his head off lar !!! stupid uncle... !!

super look forward to tml, its a day i can finally finish my eoc project presentation..!! somemore at night going for the party, really hope miracles to happen though im not suppose to.. !! just see bar... not staying overnight for tml party.. :P

Yesterday night was going crazy due to "too tired" emotion. Was disturbing mavis, didn't thoght she was very busy de... if not i would not have disturb her and asking her video cam with me. Then also due to my "too tired" emotion, was not in the right mind and i went to nudge him to play video camera with me.. but too bad he was busy with something. Really really feel very very sorry to the both of them :( hope he dont feel that i am irritating or anything.. dont wish that to happen :(

Was currently in the lesson of IWT, today can be considered a very happy day. Carried the bag of HEAVY drinks to school AGAIN...!! some just dont seem to appreciate it.. -_-"" i carried all the way from home and was so tired in carrying can!! somemore its so heavy that the bag broke again. -_-""

When i went out of train today, saw him.. he was just right infront of me. Was super super surprise and think i was actually so lucky lor. Dare not call him, so stayed quiet while i was right behind him all the while till reach school. All the way on the road though i try not to look, but still was looking at him all the way from the mrt to school. Was also very happy when saw him outside the class. He's just super SUPER attractive, though he is not considered VERY VERY handsome, but still he is very handsome and good looking :P Hmm.. so in class, he was always right at the back while my clique is always right at the front de.. so this allow me to stop keep staring at him. :P saw him bringing a basketball, and the way he catch the ball from from ahern... he was super damn attractive..!!! ( pls. i did not show the expression on the face lor :P )

Was still very crazy about him and this blog is let me write out all my craziness.. if not i scared i will not be able to supress all the feeling and start going crazy and do all those silly things again. :P

Ok, decided to try not to keep dreaming all day long.
" PEINI..!! WAKE UP LE LAR..!!! STOP dreaming..!!" :D

As seen, i had temporary locked my block allowing only some to be able to view my blog. Will unlock it after some time cum after i finish posting some erm.. kind of sensitive stuff like this current post. pls do not leak out and mention about this post in real life ( in the sense of dont mention it outside of the msn nor this blog) ..!! thanks very much. :D

Wear formal wear but in the end my group's on thursday to present, found out that i need to buck up and memorise and find more things to say for my speech.. so will do that tml :P our grp was so call scold by mrs "macdonald" as we were making some noice while other grps were presenting, i was fine with it and really thing i am really in the wrong. BUT what make me feel frustrated is the last sentence she say " now say thanks to me.. ", then is like you scold ppl then expect ppl to say thanks to you happily in that kind of mood.. !!?? no common sense sia.. then when she walk out i just give the irritated look. The rest was really frustrated to the maximum, they even toss rubbish in the bin over the floor.. tried to pick up and stack back, but the rubbish bin is simply too full le. Yong ern and JJ was still there while the rest are off, then yong ern " tsk tsk tsk..." which make esther wanted to play back with him :P

Dont know why, but during statistic tutorial.. though i was also very tired, but i still notice him with the intention of try and not to look and not take notice all this while. BUT he really look very tired, its been long already since i saw his this "very very tired" expression.. he really do look kind of sick or something. :( then somemore after that heard and saw that he failed his stats test and stats project. not to offend the others but i guess and think that the project was mostly and infact all is done by him de. Then when the teacher scold them, i really have the sense of "not fair" and sad for him.. he seem to be doing a lot of stuff on projects. Tried to offer to help, but maybe cause i dont have the ability or what.. he just refuse to ask me help when i offered one . :( Due to this and the TIREDNESS, i was quiet for the rest of the time le.. hai...

Trigger by their words " maybe you only thought you like him but actually you are not" and " if you like him you will want him to be happy..". Ok, i cant be 100% sure to you that i LOVE him until that standard that i will die for him or anything.. im not so crazy, but what i know is that i really do like him. Maybe because of my childishness that makes you think this way ba.. :( Ok, then the second one, yar.. i do agree too, i do wish he is happy... then after that this make me kind of think very seriously on the way back home. Hmm.. maybe im being too childish and selfish le, i shouldn't have done all those crazy action over him de. Just found out and have the thoughts that, maybe all this i've done might have cause a burden, disturbance and stress for him.. i really dont meant to de. Just as said, like him dont need neccessanary to have him de. On top of it, thinking of him having to worry and do so much for so many people such as JJ and some other people in his group that didn't do much or anything, it really makes me kind of erm.. sad and worry for him. Hope that in his mind im not like them :( plus due to my "blur" nature, im most lightly to be adding more stress and be a burden and problem for him if i continue to do what im doing, which is to be erm.. crazy??!! Really worry that one day he will collapse due to the overload of work... :( Feel like caring and helping him in any ways, but i really dont know how to help and care. Tried in caring and helping him through msn (i only have enough courage to do that on msn.. sorry ) , but he seems to be erm.. those kind of "attitude", like erm.. dont appreciate it but not really say dont appreciate it or its like dont like what i was doing, i'm not sure... thats why im scared and was afraid of approaching him le.

Was told by someone that he DO like me, but i really dont wish to hope so much le.. cause if the truth comes out to be not what was told to me, i will only be more sad de. And from what i see and with my "no confidence at all in myself and insecureness" i think he dont like me, and wont like me de. Dont dare to have such high hopes and looking forward to the dreams le, OS "peini it's time to wake up from your wonderful dream le.."

I also know that it's not a good thing to put all this personal troubles and unhappiness on my friends by telling them all day long, its just not fair for them. Will try not to.. and i promise..!!

Hope the best for him, and i swear will try all my best to not to do anything crazy and silly le since i think he dont like me (but the craziness in my mind towards him will still remain the same :P ) .. i really dont wish to cause disturbance, burden to him and make him feel irritated of me.

Will try to be cheerful and happy.. :P all the best and hope i really can manage on what i wanted to do :D

Just now cook and eat ginger wine chicken.. :P nice nice.. but prefer the rice wine more then the red rice wine :P ate a fish head all by myself.. then never ate much rice, if my stomach allows.. i will continue go take durian eat :P hehe..

Not enough sleep sia, yesterday reach home then collaspe le.. in the end need to do all the ppt on the train. -_-""

Ok, i know im a weird person lo.. thats me :D Erm.. in case you all dont know, i super hate being hint and "tickle tickle" by stuffs then purposely let you know a bit then dont want let you know..!! maybe its cause of my sis.. -_-"" CAUSE thats what she did to me EVERYTIME when we were very young.. and i SUPER HATE it, just imagine someone did that to you so many time per day for years lor..!! IRRITATING right..!! Dont try to play with me on this, i will get serious and be angry de.. though others see it as small things but i dont!! But heng my sis dont have those behaviour le..

Hmm.. today went for EOC project meeting, though i looks stress, talk a lot and a bit fed up.. but i really am not. Think they piss off with me bar, especially the two PRO people?? !! hereby say sorry.. :P Haha.. think i can only be more normal and comfortable being at home.. :P home sweet home.. :P go home then all very relax and comfortable de :D Anyway feel glad that esther, valer and xiao cui stayed back to wait for me eat :P Esther and valer thanks for the care and offer to help me buy banana milk when i look... erm.. hungry when i was still in the EOC grp meeting?? :D thanks anyway.. Thanks again for the three of them who STAYED back to listen to me nag, though i didn't really say anything :P

While i was eating, they played and joke around.. being said that they want to go forward erm.. touch?? him.. HAHAhaha.. funny la, then when xiao cui preparing to go towards him a bit only then he quickly turn back. Haha.. he got eyes at the back.. :D then before that she also got SUDDENLY grab and hook his hand, then he smile and scared until he faster run off to the back le.. Orh hor..!!! HE SCARED SCARED liao.. HAHAhahaha.. !! :D

Today was played on about "the scandalous", very malu la.. -_-"" anyway the other one being played one gives no response and continue with the work -_-"" lame lar.. that one is a "MU TOU REN" lai de... he weird weird de, quite difficult to figure what he really was thinking -_-"" nvm... forget it.. *raise both my hand* i surrender.. white flag raise up.. surrender surrender.. haha..!! :D jking jking.. was shaken by the decision i said on the previous post, -_-"" cause i really dont feel secure at all la.. anyway, i am one that is super not confident on myself de, so will feel even more insecure de... :P Thats why my EOC result sucks... :P AND also... thats why keep having the idea of giving up when i dont really want and wish to give up :P

Just see how things go after tml bar, cause got the project then we got at least talk a bit... see after the presentation when there's no link le then see whether still got talk to me a not lor.. due to the insecure feelings, i really start having the thinking that what i heard from someone is not true leh.. super super insecure.. :( aiya.. maybe is i think too much ba, perhaps all this things or wonderful dreams does not exist in real life and will not come true de :P will try not to think about it le :P was also trying to let normal takes its course and to act cool :P

Recently ate a lot of fish :P erm.. this few day ate around 2 whole fish lor.. cause im the only one that will eat, my parents not free then my sis dont dare to eat :P but never eat much rice or noodles, have the sudden eager to eat pepper crab sia :P especially the crab egg is my favourite :P i like to eat quite lots of egg sia, got the chicken/duck egg, fish egg and crab egg. :P just finish 1 big fish and one small fish, plus the " yuan yang bo cai tang" its a soup anyway.. quite nice de :P

Just now chat with my friend and now she is my jie jie le :P

I was told to hang on to it and dont give up, telling me that the "ice" really do like me, saying that know something that cant tell me... a few of them all say the "ice" do like me. But last time he told me he have someone else in mind le.. its very tiring to guess on what he is thinking and holding on to something that i feel like cant reach it :'( but the sight and thoughts of the "ice" really make me feel happy, just the thoughts of him not liking me is making me going emo... hai.. :( its like i've already put down a girl's pride and do so many thing le, what can be done i've already done.. there's nothing else i can do le. So even if he dont like me i also have no choice le. ok just as said by my jie jie, i will give him some time.. but if after holidays still like that then im really really gonna try to give up le, though as said before, it will be very hard, long and may even not be able to and not able to succeed. BUT guess what i think and can do now is to stay silently at this corner waiting for him.

Was at alexandria house now, and wenjie was violated by her dog.. haha!! shall blog again later on :P

Finally one of the wall is push down le :D so glad that this thing is over le.. but too bad the friendship is no longer there le. :(

Now is the other wall, really really dont feel like pushing it down and walk through it. Feel like leaning on it and stay there forever, but i know the wall is not built for me though i wish it is. Think i gonna really try to push it down and walk pass it le, no point leaning and stay there like an idiot.. the one it is built for will come sooner or later de. No use hanging onto it knowing it will never happen. Will try to push down and walk through it le though i know its difficult and i am most probably not able to.

Havent finish doing EOC project, will continue later on with some help :P Meeting them at bishan at 1 for esther they all and 230pm for my eoc grp member :P AGAIN... hope miracles.. though im not suppose to :P will post more at night, now will go prepare to go le :P

Today wake up late, thought there's no school :P then wake up le faster ask dad to drive me to school. They say i was very pale in the morning sia, after POM tutorial we went for the accounting lesson that's specially made for the few of us :P

After that ally, valer, me, esther and wenjie went to library to "study". Valer, Wen jie and Ally was studying and doing work, then me and esther was sleeping for most of the time. :P Then during the sleeping time, i was actually thinking bout the person and blah blah blah sia.. -_-"" kick it out of the dream la!!! After that we watch "SAW", it's a saddistic and scary movie. Wen jie and i was focusing and watching the movie while the rest is watching and at the same time SCARED plus watching plus talking without the hearing of the sounds..-_-"" anyway wen jie and i was listening to the sounds with ally's earphone. BUT after that i was scared too.. i started to have the thoughts of hugging someone or my pillow. Tried to grab esther's and ally's hand.. but still dont feel the sense of secure, so give up.. then i just try to control myself and was fine after some time. I was finally normal and not emo for the few hours, then we eat some food and went back home.

Im really really tired, unwilling to give up but at the same time feel like giving up. Why is it so contridicting ..!! can you be more specific?? dont keep being shy la.. im really confuse by you le, not just me.. the rest also leh..!! pls lar.. im really getting quiet thinking about it all day long leh !! Beside this i still got another big problem.. some of you might know de, sian arh.. why im stuck between this two wall la!!! will just end my post here..

Today bring the 12 bottles of drink to school for friends, carry until i want to die.. whats more worse is the plastic bag broke, so had to carry like siao!! then my dad even say i very "Sa" lor.. then ask me dont carry and suffer.. but in the end i bring anyway :P -_-""

Guess what, i'm really tired le. I'm already facing a very difficult problem now, but what's more worse is that more problems is coming. I really dont know what to do le, its like a shape with a lot of angles.. not just a normal triangle hor!! Boy 1 to girl 1, girl 1 to boy 2 , boy 2 to girl 2... im really really tired.. !!

I hate the idea of it, why doesn't it happen on me by that person instead?? :'( i really hate the idea of it !!SICK of it.. really feel like crying now!!! oh my gosh.. why the world is so unfair to me.. !! is the person up there trying to make fun and fool me around?? :'( its always like this de, the one i like don't like me, then the one i dont like in the end like me.. -_-"" Its so UNFAIR..!!! feel like crying silently in the dark... tried to forget it b4, but somehow not able to and end up keep mentioning it.

Whats to be forget is destined to be forget, whats not to be mine will forever not be mine de. I'm really stuck between the two wall.. :'( why do you give me hope when you dont like!!! pls anyone save me from this complicated world..!! heard this sentence b4?? " bu shi qing ren ye bu ke neng shi peng you le" i really hope this sentence isn't true and is not the fact !!! my head is going to explode soon..!!


The sight of it make me excited,
but the thoughts of the fact made me feel sad about it.
The truth make me happy,
but the problems make me suffer.
The idea and dreams of it make me feel contented,
but the awake make my heart pain.
The rise of the sun make me look forward to a miracle,
but the set of sun remind me of the millions of impossible.

DONT talk about this post !! just keep quiet about this :P Enjoy the following video.. the song and music is really super super nice :P

Version 1 :P


Version 2 :P

Back.. today every one was VERY HIGH lor..!! everyone was still normal all the way, even when it's cass and her jj present the whole class also never say anything much..!! then even when he present they also not so high. Before i go up then JJ even shouted " yong ern will always support you..!! " Then the minute i present, who is the last one, all SUPER high... then JJ even wanted to climb onto the table!! THE WHOLE class was super damn high.. take note it's the WHOLE CLASS. I thought only cass and my grp will get high only, never expect the whole class to be so high... -_-"" then he let them play until the whole face damn red. Haha.. my face was not red.. MOhohoho.. but im super malu de.. :P Then that jin rong even played and say what.. "xiao en en.." -_-"" though it sounds nice.. :P but its still erm.. very bleh leh..!! then me call what!!?? "xiao ni ni" orh.. ??!!! anyway my aunt used to call me "ni ni" when i was very young.. haha.. :P Was really very fun, but i didn't manage to finish what i want to say.. the whole class is simply TOO high until i cant heard what i was saying. EVEN THE cher also come and ask me why the WHOLE class is SO HIGH and like to play on me AND the person..!! what the hell larh.. how i know lor!! pls lor.. its like freaking weird for TWO cher to ask me about it leh!! first is the miss "macdona" and now is this IWT cher. -_-" what am i suppose to say sia.. -_-"" hope things wont get worse.. !!

Then after that we went for the survey, i was busy distributing chocolates :P only manage to give to some people as im not that rich to buy a lot. :P the incident of me trying to run off from the room is super funny sia.. wanted to ask the whole class one, but when i went in with the sight of the room then i decided on one thing.. "RUN!!!" they tried to close the door b4 i went out, but lucky i am fast enough :P

Went for the POM activity after that, and i manage to WON a prize... BUT its a guy's shirt lar.. and its quite big for me to wear too!! i no brother then father dont wear this de, what am i going to do with it lar..!! some more big big de shirt i go plenty of it le.. -_-"" they joke by saying erm.. give blah blah lor, then i was like talking in myself " hmm.. thats a good idea, :D somemore it's black de.. at least its not PINK lor.. haha!! BUT i think better dont lar.. very weird and funny.. too overboard le if i really do that, somemore i wont dare to do it though i have the thinking de.. haha!! " and i keep quiet.. :P think i will just kept it in the cupboard waiting for an opportunities to give it away or wear it bar :P waiting for it's day to face the sunlight.. :P

Gonna prepare for tml EOC speech and for the project today, was having the idea of using my today de IWT personal webpage to present if the cher ask me to present tml.. since she say can present on any topic :P but still i wont say the drama part to prevent them from being TOO high if i had no choice but to go up present :P Heard esther say someone in their grp wanted to treat them wor.. SO GOOD...!! i want i want.. :P sia lar.. heard bout food i crazy sia.. i sound like a pig.. (note is cute cute kind de :P ) just reach home and now i will go eat a bit, bath, rest then do work le :P

Some pictures, enjoy... :P

Group photo.. :P

Went to school in the morning. Ate bitter chocolate, actually its not that bitter at all.. :P This will be a emo post, so anyone who dont like it can just ignore this post.

Panic, nervous, scared, lost, happy, excited and sad... all in one day.
Panick, Nervous, Scared about the presentation
Lost on what to do, helpless..
Happy and excited to have the few minutes sitting there and know the word "do care"
(temae zhi dao ni shi na me nousatsu you you mei li ma, guang mang bu duan de cong goshujin de sheng shang san fa chu lai, gan dao mei na me shang xin le.. )

Sad to have the feeling of... ( Gan jue hen jing que you gan jue hen yuan, gan jue hen shou xi que you gan jue hen muo sheng, gan jue shou yi sheng jiu neng de dao jue jue de bu guan zhe me shen shou zhua dou zhua bu dao, gan jue jiu kuai de dao le que you jue de jiu kuai shi qu le, zhen de bu xiang shi qu anohito, gan dao kong xu he you yu zhong. )

Fall asleep on the train, last night never sleep much. was in a daze all the way back home about the feeling of in the column sad. Am i wrong or am i right ? is that what i want ??

Sometime i really think im not pretty at all, in fact think im ugly.. but other times think im quite pretty, think im weird :P haha.. :P

Anyway was glad that economic presentation have past.. tired.. will just rest and continue with the undone work.

Pls do not discuss and talk about this post !! ignore and keep quiet about this post, thanks :D

Today wake up quite early to continue do the stupid econnomic project AGAIN..!! its the first time and the only time i continuously do the work for so many days!! Never really have eat much nor sleep much then whole day doing lor.. i wasn't even this hardworking for my O'level lor..!! Today feel a bit like crying again.. hai.., but finally finished all the thing around the afternoon. I even never eat anything then keep doing for the whole morning then at around 2++ to 3 pm finish le then go eat my breakfast cum lunch lor..!! Then only after i do finish everything then they ask " how bout the project?? " -_-"" dont talk bout unhappy stuff le...

Then after that just go out to meet my friends play arcade to release all my stress, if not im really going to cry again because of the stupid project. Super fun lor.. even took some time to take neoprints then we went home :P

When i reach home was SO happy when i see the labtop sia, though i set as away but a LOT of people find me chat. Especially the one and only conver box.. FIRST TIME lor.. haha.. !! :P Super touched, surprise, happy.. and was quite high now too :P anyway i shouldn't think too much bout this something that i know wont happen de lor.. think too much later esther think i crazy lor.. then always say want forget want forget then never de.. -_-"" but i will try my best NOT to think too much de esther ;P

Now had to go back to do other work, tutorials and projects le. Spend the whole week and some days on last week in the same mood to do the economics project then no time to do other stuff.. :( but anyway since im so high in mood then feel much better le :P Super got mood to do things now, so will do my work now after i bath :P Sayonara.. wish the best for me for tml presentation on the economics project :P

Today wake up very early to go school do the stupid ecnomic projects. Was super stress lar, research the question one yesterday then today go school do. BUT still cannot finish.. :( i even cried lor.. only cry a bit :P the previous time at home cried even worse :P the other two guy seems dont care and never ask anything about it when we have a lot havent finish.. !! was told the girl quit school le, then this few day cant manage to get in contact with her.. so no choice i need to do her part too, if not later nothing to pass up on monday. :( in the end i end up doing the whole question 1,2 and the powerpoint. faint.. !!

Was at library doing the work, first time see "ice" so high de.. thats what esther they all say.. haha.. she even ask me to play along. -_-"" pls lor.. i already so stress and you want me to play, later cannot finish the work lar.. :( decided to stay away and not talk about"ice" if i wanted to forget about it. It happen that whenever i decided to watch tv.. its like hinting me -_-"" last time on it then say bout the bai wei xiu in the show liking the li ming shun. Then a moment ago when i on TV, then the bai wei xiu in the show say bout those chim knowledge and said to give up.

In the show she say to her best friend, " wo yuan ye yi wei zhi yao wo nu li jian chi jiu neng gan dong he de dao ta, dan wo xiang tong le.. suai ran ta shi wo meng mei yi qiu de bai ma wang zi dan wo bu she ta de bai xue gong zhu. Yi zhi yi lai wo dou shi zai yi xiang qinq yuan, zhe yang jian chi xia qu ye zhi hui shi wo gen lang bei gen shang xin. ai shi bu neng mian qiang de, shuo is wo hao bu rong yi jue ding xia ding le jue xin fang qi ta..." Touchedby the things the character say in the show, and i kind of agree with her also le.. HAI...!!

Had wrong esther on some issue.. sorry :( Then the rest make fun of me with the " banana milkshake" -_-"" anyway it was a wonderful misunderstanding and conclusion i had made :P those who know the story will know what im talking about.. :P was told that i had mistaken it as banana milkshake :P and pls lar, its really quite nice de lor.. dont believe you can go try!!

Went to AMK to have our lunch, tried the drink that esther say.. SUPER weird and yucky.. bleh..!! then we were discussing bout that "ice" that drink it, weird people have weird taste.. haha :P Any way esther tasted the banana milkshake and she say is nice de lor!! and i still prefer banana milkshake rather then the weird drink.. and though the story is not what i thought it is :P Also ate the durian pancake.. its SUPER nice, outside is hot and crispy for the pancake then inside fill with cold, pleasant durian mixture.. !! SUPER NICE..!! Somemore got so many other food that is made of durians de.. yummy!! LOVE those durian pancake, cakes, durian puffs and so much more, will make sure i go and buy it again when i go AMK again :D Anyway the fresh durian is also very nice... :D love durians, but if eat TOO much i also will get a bit scared of it :P haha.. :P

Finally went home and i rush in doing the economic project after a while, now update blog then go back to rush again.. :( but anyway tml morning still need wake up and rush other work too.. then at night go out with my 2 good friend :D hehe.. long time never see them le, i wonder the two of them together until how le.. ;P

AND NOTE.. cass i know you almost everyday come my blog read, but pls TAG leh.. :P and those few people pls try not to discuss what i say in my blog .. very malu leh, im just being straight forward in my blog. :P if i need to be careful of what i post so much then i might as well not post anything le :P haha.. :P

Today had to do the presentation which act as a test for the POM, i was so nervous until i say wrongly.. !! Then after that due to some reason i went super emo le, all this problem i had still not enough isit !! Then somemore still want to open the lock and put a fire in to it.. !!! I get a bit frustrated with it, though i had no rights to be.. :P But finally there's at least one good news, and it's POM presentation is OVER..!! :D We took a lot pictures, today no time and mood to post so shall post tml barh :P

Stay back a while with valerie to wait for her friends, then after i reached home.. rush to eat a bit and bath then i immediately go continue do the economics project until now..!! look at the computer until i faint sia.. :P then i think later i rest a bit wake up earlier to read and do a bit on the IWT thing plus read a bit on the EOC projects stuff. After that will leave house at around 8 to meet esther at school to do all this work + study + do the stupid IWT thing !!! Today is already very unlucky and i think tml will be the same too.. So little time but yet there is so much things to be done and finished..!! I havent even start in studying lor.. !! Vexed..!!

Hope i wont feel "unlucky" again tml.. miracles pls come.. :P

Today was very emo, im just in bad mood... but was alright after a while. Finally my econs project gonna end soon!! Went to Amk to play the drums, its SUPER fun.. i manage to become more high which was expected de. :P

I've also went to take note down some of the promotion and special things about Cathay cinema, just to be case internet did not give such imformation :P Was a bit crazy with them after playing games cause i keep talking rubbish. :P ;) -_-"" Me and valer eat slice fish bee hoon with milk while esther is carrot cake. As predicted, i went to buy banana milk.. and it's SUPER nice..!! MUCH MORE nicer then school one lor..!! Its like the banana taste is strong enough, they use the banana which is got a bit sour sour sweet sweet de :P SUPER NICE..!!

As we were (esther and me) were waiting for the mrt, Jun Hao push the head of the two of us and skipped off like a kid off towards muhd.. haha..!! :D then after that on the train they keep saying political stuff, guns and weapons. They even played me about MP5..!! where got lor.. its a gun name in the fighting games..!! let them say until like real like that.. they a bit too bored sia !! -_-"" So for the whole trip they talk bout politics, they can even remember the years and all the name of malaysia and singapore government !! if their study is as good lor, though they say they only interested in the subject then will study and get very high marks... then they can go Uni for sure le lor. :P

Immediately bath and continue do the powerpoint for the econnomic project, there are some minor problems with the project.. hope it will be solve soon and things get better :P , . After that just as it was seen, i change my blog skin.. NICE right.. i decided on this after much consideration de :P

It was such a tiring day, wake up in the morning to read the exercise that cher give us. Was tired for the whole day, plus my vision is blur blur de.. cause due to too tired le. Then the whole class just study then hang around, slag a bit then went for the test. During EOC class, my grp decided to do the topic "cathay" but never tell me.. anyway some other members also dont know. :P was trying to join the 2 people as i thought they are busy discussing bout the EOC project ( there is 5 members in a grp) but in the end when i sit over found out the two of them were mostly talking bout POM project, which is not the same grp as me for that module. They seem so closed sia.. thats why i suspect maybe the girl is the one that he like :P anyway after that i sit back to my seat le lor. :P Tml meeting them :P

During break only have sandwich as lunch then went to take my accounting test, found out that there is only 2 question to be done for this test. -_-"" Faint arh.. i calculate wrongly..!! then spend a lot time looking at the question, but in the end was able to come out with SOMETHING.. :P But after that when we check with each other on the answer, i panicked as i forget what i write.. -_-"" scared i score badly sia.

Today stay back to accompany esther they all for a while.. in the mean time i do and rearrange the econs project, to talk a bit bout the determinants on que 3 in question 2. Was super tired plus it was raining heavily..!! WANTED go home!! feel like fainting..!! Later had to do the IWT work then prepare some photos of the " Loves one ", as most of the pictures of my family is by developed film out de so had to do a bit axtra work to find out how to scan and put the photo into my thumbdrive. :P

Dont know why i have a small sense of feeling that something i dont like or bad will happen, hope i'm the one that is TOO much :P Look forward to miracle.. :P

Rest and only started studying around 11++pm just now until now, actually never study much.. read a bit on the lecture notes one more time after fliping through yesterday. Then after that i went to go through the tutorial question, plan to read the accounting textbook then tml morning wake up earlier then go through the file the cher sent us if im able to. Guess there wont be anyone who will actually go through the tutorial question nor read the textbook.

My that good friend lor !! just now suddenly come on msn just to say "good luck for tml test", this is good enough but then the following thing that he say make me cant concentrate le though i know he is kind of joking only. "Only people who get A's can be my friend", then i panick and worried already le.. keep thinking about the sentence and cant concentrate in study. This only make me more stress and PANICKED EVEN MORE!!! thats why i tried to calm down a bit by posting it on my blog :P thanks for the good luck wishes, but next time the behind part can just dont say le ba :P

My class tml start super early at 8, which means i had to reach there by 730am and leave house at 635 am. This will also means i had to wake up SUPER DUPER early to study and prepare to go school, tired sia..Will post again after i'm back from school later on.

Today wear the super tight top, plan to wear another one that is very big in size de.. but as esther say want cam whore ask we all wear nicer then i wear this de :P feel uncomfortable the whole day sia, cause as the fact it is im quite fat one lor.. then the shirt so tight make me scared scared.. :P think i will not be wearing it again unless i slim down bar :P

Today was quite fun, but we were super noisy during econs lesson.. tried to calm them down when i notice the atmosphere, but to no avail. :P I wonder when will there be a day that projects will be all done.. cause i think after all this project then IWT projects will be coming soon AGAIN!! :P Esther was super high today and she said in a VERY high mood "hi" to yong ern, then yong ern trying to be cool then response back.. :P the way he do make me think of Zhou Jie Lun :P actually he be cool also quite good looking de.. hehe.. :P

Found out something thats quite disappointing, it is that there is some unhappiness between our classmates. Found out that some guys dont like the group of us or perhaps is me :( We are classmates, lets be friend and spend the rest of our time together leaving a happy memories for us bar :)

Have to study accounts for tml test.. :( was looking forward to this sunday.. :P and hope can lose down weight soon, though its said that according to my height and weight.. im considered to be normal and not fat. My aim is to be 50kg or below.. :P wanted to look slimmer.. :P

Went to add a feature in my blog, it's the "time" that i post :P Have also create a account at imeem, the previous one is my sis account :P
Wake up at 1++pm, eat a bit rice, chicken wing, ice cream and DURIANS..
Wanted to eat more durians de, but eat until stomach upset.. :(

Yesterday again chat video cam with my good friend until very late.. :P very fun sia, haha.. :P
But he say this week he never find me then i keep finding him chat, then say i took away 1 hour ++ whenever we chat. FINE..!! then dont find him chat le.. don't you regret..!! Arg.. i meant what i say !! :@ Fine will stop talking about it..!! :P

Think i will rest and lie down a while for around one hour to let the stomach not upset anymore then i go bath then do work plus study le. If not i dont have time le, cause tml still need to stay back in school for the stupid project lar.. why so many project de!! The teacher hor.. keep giving us non stop de tutorials, test and projects sia.. do until i sian.. -_-""

Finally.. tuesday and wednesday coming..!! After school on tuesday and wednesday we decided to went for shopping and play the drums at AMK.. :P look forward to it !! And tml the grp of us decided to wear nicer to school to have cam whore !! HAhaha.. :P

In the end today never go with esther to study as their grp meeting is cancel :P then i was like slacking for the whole day at home. Exams coming le but i still feel so lazy.. -_-"" guess must force myself out of the comfort zone soon :P and i think tonight will start doing work le barh.. if not im going to be the last in class ler.. :( :P

Not in good mood for this few day, really feel like going to play the drums to let out all my frustration!! oh well think i will just go play it on tuesday after my accounts test.. !! trying to force myself not to think about it and start focussing on my test and school work.

Was creating a secret blog.. this blog is meant for me to write what i wish and yet not offending anyone and REALLY act as a diary to me, not meant to be read de :P so friends out there dont ask me for the URL of it. :P and pls dont even bother finding it also.. :D Spend the whole day editing the html thing of that blogskin.. wanted to faint just by doing it. will consider changing my current blogskin for this blog. :P Feel much better after blurting what i want in there.. :P

Today was considered quite borng. My good friend finally went online and got time to chat when i was having my POM lesson :P but then the good friend was busy AGAIN after we chat for a while. In the lesson there's only one interesting part, and that is to say JJ and YE are GAYing.. Hahaha.. :P

Think i will REALLY forget about it le, no use for me to thinking about it and the other one is completely like an "ice" melting only for that certain "drinks" out there. Haha.. friends friends forever anyway.. :P now say bout ice and drink then i thirsty le.. -_-""

Then after POM we went mac there and i rush and complete my econs project, and FINALLY i finished my part.. WOOhoo.. :P but i think will start the EOC projects soon for next week, somemore next week i got accounts ICAs (test)... there's also POM presentation which acts as one of our ICAs too, even more sian lar.. have to wear formal attire.. -_-""

Feel like going out today but no one want to accompany me go.. :( i wanted to play the drums again to let out all my frustration bout both school work and some personal stuffs..!! :'( so sad no one can accompany me so will not be going le lor :( see i so pathetic sia.. haha.. :P today also wear quite nice, infact i everyday also wear quite nice lor -_-"" cause most of my clothes is nice nice de, the rest mostly is sleeping attire so cannot wear to school.. haha.. :P

Suddenly found out that all my friends all so hardworking finished all the tutorial immediately after lectures.. me stress sia. Still wondering should i go to school tml to study account with esther... hmm.. im confuse!! if i dont go i scared i regret cause no one to ask if i dont know, but if i go then i had to rush finish all the tutorial and study a bit by today to ask them tml.. will be very rush leh.. then somemore i quite tired now. Dont feel like doing .. -_-""

In conclude today still consider is a nice day bar, a plain day with NO miracles.. really hope the miracles happen :P shall end post here :P

Today went to class late, pick up a so call lucky coin :P prepare all the thing for the EOC then in the end never present.. lame lor!! then after that when its the time we can go, esther want to stay cause the cher open the video for us then if all of us left like very bad. Then i heard that actually valer wanted to go too de.. ARH... why like that.. i should have gone off too :) after that we went to KouFu to accompany the guys to eat.. haha, but a few of us decided to went down to buy something to eat :P

During POM lecture i was crazy lor, drawing something that is erm... haha.. show esther they all and they say is nice. BUT dont look like the thing i wanted to draw cause the drawing look more nicer then the real thing :Pthe coin is not lucky at all lor..!! We went home after that.

Hmm.. crazy cass and JJ, i went to video cam with cass after i reach home.. then saw the two of them. They so sweet sia.. then want to qing re also cannot cause got web cam, They seem to be together everyday after school to cass house.. hehe.. SO SWEET!! :P haha.. just found out they everyday come to my blog read.. -_-"" they too free.. somemore read le NEVER tag de..!! Must at least tag what..!! :( thats all for today.. sian arh.. tml still need stay back for econs project.. -_-"" hope the best for tml and hehe.. ;) :D

Today have been swollowing all the 3 packets of sweet instead of sour plum.. also eat until i want vomit, skipped lunch and have dinner at 4pm, it's noodles.. quite yummy de :P ate some tibits too then never eat le :P . Today was super confuse on the IWT thing, we even have to do the personal web page sia..i die le.. -_-""

Today was great.. xiao cui played on that person ;) and kinda helped me :D haha.. funny lor!! have the kind of sadistic feeling for the short few minute .. :P Smash smash and curse..!! haha...!! :D hehe.. had sensored all the too cruel parts i had in mind.. hehe.. ;) Just now i found out that i heard it wrongly, being that there is a huge fire in the ice.. but im quite sure i heard it sia.. -_-"" i dreaming orh ?? . i think i think too much le :P then i've been fed up for something that is not the truth about this issues ?? FAINT* -_-"" nvm.. anyway this will make me cut off the lines that is connected better, wont think bout it le :P

After went to get free popcorns and candy floss in school.. YUMMY YUMMY!! :D Today kind of worry and say/nag too much to them about something... i dont actually really meant to keep nagging.. just wanted a listener, and being understand of :P dont really need all sorts of solution :P though sometime i worry too much or have some weird/not so good comment.. my view kind of change in to good ones on things after a while :P (for most of the time but not all :P) will try not to be like this.. scared scared that this me will irritate friends sia.. :P but this side of me doesn't seem to have it when i face some small amount of people :P MISS THE PAST :P

Then when i reach home around 5 pm i do econs AGAIN until now.. which is 9pm!! ARG..!! and i really cant find the price needed for the cross elasticity!! then the last part which is the market structure part i really dont know how to do lar!! :@ fed up le !! STUPID ECONS PROJECT!!! feel like being snow white.. can just sleep forever dont need worry anything lor!! hehe :P
Hope one day of this week can go out play a while or play with the drum to let out all my frustration!! :P but i dont think have that kind of time and no one have time to go with me bar :P Hope tml will be a better day and MIRACLES happen lar.. though i know it wont happen.. -_-"" hehe.. :P

Shit..!! why my blog got spammer de.. -_-"" they too BO LIAO le isit..!! keep saying " eh you think you very pretty isit, cannot make it lar" kind of thing.. and pls.. -_-"" who say i think im pretty?? they siao lor.. -_-"" anyway i will delete their tagging anyway :P i dont care about them le.. this is my blog.. if they dont like it then just go far away from me!! they childish and inconsiderate to do this kind of bad and small stuff in the dark.. if dare just say it infront of me lor!!

Have been bathing in the dark this few days :P the lights spoiled then all lazy go buy light bulbs. So just bath in the dark with just a small torchlight in it.. quite fun de.. hehe.. :P Today finally finish my statistic, was super happy :P but too bad more ICAs awaiting for me and MAJOR exams is reaching too le.. :( had to study until siao by the time came.. anyway think of the long holiday we will be having i super happy le. :P Today eat finish all the 3 packet of sour plum.. just feel like swallowing all of it.. then in the end i eat too much until feel like vomiting.. -_-"" we took a lot of pictures too.. will not be posting it, too lazy le. However it will be post at esther's blog bar i guess :P went EMO for most of the time in school.. but when we went to the playground play then i happy le :D tml still need go stay for my projects.. -_-"" sian..

Was talking bout "ICE", "FRIDGE" and "MILO" in the previous 2 post, but i deleted it le. Didn't expect the "FRIDGE" to actually go read my blog!!! He even say it in class pls!! ARG..!!! CASS i think you better send your "FRIDGE" to repair lar... and pls tell your fridge dont talk rubbish le !!! Im quite stuck up le.. the ice is not a ice, but is warmed up long ago and become steam by some fire out there. Arg.. dont know what to say le..

Today went to buy 4 packets of sour plum, in the end all taste so bad except one.. then no choice had to throw away all the 3 packets lor. Today have been eating sour plum for the whole day, feel like swalloing all the sour plum in the stores!! :P

My grp thought of staying back to do today de but dont know why just never le -_-"" im really stuck with the question 2 lar!!! its like i cant find any info on it!! then nad have done with his 1 min or so de video (thats what he need to do only), muhhamud never find about the question three he is in charge of yet... then qian hui i dont know about it. Me is incharge of question 2 while qian hui incharge of question one.. but i guess me and qian hui had to depend on each other to finish this thing le.

Today being dragged by force by my mum and sis for the whole afternoon and evening then at night then reach home.. :( then no time to rest and study le.. OH MY GOD!!! i think today no time to sleep le.. -_-"" -_-zzZ

Tml is my statistic test, and now i havent even start in studying on it.. pls note now is 5pm. Plus i really had no mood to study larh!! feel like failing this test le.. -_-"" but i wont lar.. hehe.. think will go have s rest, clear the "RUBBISH" in the head then study lor. NOTE i also havent do account tutorial.. only read a bit on econs and accounts only.
SAYONARA...hope for the best.. :(

Tml (i use to "tml" so i will not change to "tmr" :P) is youth day, and im not sure if i still need to go to school, the cher say nothing about being monday no school lor!! I have test on tuesday, a lot of tutorial work and projects that need to be done all by wither tml or tuesday and now i havent even start in doing yet.. me super lazy de :P all the rest started already.. :( why am i the only one that is like this leh.. just hope im not the last can le :P Think i will start panicking and rush when i start at the evening or night :P

Parents finally come back today, i dont need to wash clothes, prepare meal, do all the work le !! :D yesterday even stayed up until very late to wash the clothes but end up falling asleep accidentedly without drying the clothes out, so 7am wake up faster dry already go back to sleep :P Went to find someone to talk, found out that he was reading books late at night of around 2++am -_-"" i was waiting for the washing machine to finish washing, super tired but cant sleep.. had to wait. So i ask him whether he can accompany me and chat with me, was quite happy that he said yes but before we talk much he said had to go le :P will just post until here for today :P

BACK today!!! today i was completely crazy.. totally crazy..!! During the POM tutorial i ask the cher about the POM stuff.. she wanted to let me know better by asking me listing one of the singers i like, but i really dont have sia.. then the grp of girls say " the classmate you admire.. " then they go " Ye Ye Ye... " some even say the full name of it. -_-"" they say my face go completely red at that time sia.. -_-"" super malu de lor!!!

Then after school we even called to ask whether he want to go AMK a not, esther called and pass me the phone.. then i just go " ok nth already.. bye :D " haha.. lame me.. cause i think it will be weird for him to come being the only guys among the girls sia.. haha.. we were scared that he will be angry, but in the end it was know that the one i talk to is not him.. it's his good friend who helped him take a while as he wanted to take something. ARh.. -_-"" but then after that we called again to ask him to come :P but too bad he is not free :P he sound so dead in the phone sia.. then i was like keep on laughing all the way for nothing.. crazy me.. -_-""

Esther we all carry on to have SUBWAY.. kind of shock to know there's isn't anymore student meal anymore.. :P then we went to arcade..!! we were like keep on playing the drums.. play until i very high lor!! haha.. i wonder what will be if the quietest person in our class go and play that drums.. i guess that person will have a POKER face throughout with only the hand panicking.. HAhahaha.. :P Hope miracles happen soon.. :P

Today is my turn for EOC presentation for the ICAs, i went to school at 9am.. doing nothing much.. im so LONELY.. :P then after that i keep memorising the script, but then when i went up to present i panick too much until i forget everything.. -_-"" so no choice just rely on the ppt and read instead. My speech is like super not smooth sia, guess im not going to get good marks le :( somemore the one after me is YE, which is like so damn good.. it make the fact of me being very lousy even more obvious and clear.. :'( hehe.. when i present i didn't dare to look at him, and when he present i even grab esther's hand to calm down sia.. -_-"" lame me..

After our POM lecture the group of us, being all girls talk a lot bout guys and funny stuff.. was quite surprise the girl's say he very weird and give examples of why he they think he is weird.. but he not weird what.. he's normal and i think he is even more cute after hearing what they say... hehe :P the girls even say he keep looking down and dont dare look up when i present sia.. This kind of made me think very positively.. -_-"" but cannot lar.. think so much in the end i die.. Think is not what they seem it to be bar :P Somemore he is more goodlooking and handsome today compared to the normal time.. hehe.. even she also say.. haha.. :D Guess im not going to think much bout it le.. if not i go even more crazy and die soon :D GOOD!!!

Was thinking of locking my blog and only allow some ppl to see my blog, but in this way it will be very troublesome for me to view my blog to see and listen to songs sia.. -_-"" so nvm bar, i just set it as opened lor.. die then die.. i dont care le.. anyway my definition of blog is something for me and some of my friends to see see de.. not for public.. :P

Today is a wonderful day, except the IWT test part :P it wasn't easy for me to stop imagine and think too much to focus on the study of test, then esther say hehe.. made him sit beside me.. then i think too much again.. -_-"" then no mood continue do last minute revise. After that i actually sit infront of him sia, after i do finish for the rest of the time i was like keep think too much.. then was trying to calm myself down. FINALLY test finish.. i quickly walk to and fro to cool myself down, the grp of us even go near there to chat.. i think even more when i see JR trying to molest that person sia.. -_-""

Then i was actually planning to stay back if erm.. yar.. but sad to say what i thought is not what it happen. I didn't even dare to say bye when that person walk pass at mac sia.. -_-"" me trying to act cool and act calm.. -_-""

I'm trying to convince myself that im thinking too much, and to try to believe he dont even like me or anything.. but then friends around me keep saying the possibility of him liking me.. -_-"" more difficult for me to not think now sia.. -_-"" FAINT* tml is my EOC test, and they are like trying and hoping to make him take photo with me sia... FAINT* like forcing sia.. -_-"" they even take picture of him and say that it is so call for my sake.. its even posted at esther blog sia.. -_-"" i want faint le..

Today just went to perm my hair.. :P hope someone likes it tml .. hehe.. :P i'm really crazy and thinking too much sia.. nvm.. i dont think le.. just see what will happen tml, hope miracle happen soon :P kind of tired to be like idiots.. -_-""

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*Pei Ni
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